Wishful Thinking

Against the fading light

i see your smile so bright

then you waved goodbye

my heart sunk and died

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your favorite flowers bloom

this sonnet stops too soon

do you remember this day

a year ago when you should have stayed

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i’ve been waiting ever since for you

(only you don’t even care)

i’ve been hurting coz you chose this too

(only you dont see me through)

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at times

i feel like you’re still here

waiting for your return

we know better it’ll never happen

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at times

i wake at night thinking you were here

these dreams are just fading memories

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waking hours

of blissful moments

these illusions’

all i have

if you were with me

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dancing in the rain

feeling all this pain

my heart still aches

coz you’re not here

Move On

im finding it hard to get over (get over you)
finding ways to finally leave you
im doubting myself
doubting the things that you do

i know i was scared
i dont want to be alone (again)
i know that you cared
but it doesnt cut off what you did

it hurts, it still does, you moved on
why cant i do the same to you
you lied, about us
and now youre doing it all over (again)

we were happy back then
why cant we be happy (again)
i trusted you (you lied to me)
this is all just a game to you

 

Hubby

i have the best(est) hubby ever!

he’s sincerely and purely and ultimately good.

so pure and so true

as clear as a white lily after the rain

your kindness showers us without fail

blessed are we and those who get to know you

and yes, God has sent you

thankful and full of gratitude are we to you

for your kindness and loving

living your life so fruitful

The Games We Play

I’m solving this mystery

I’m afraid I can’t do it all alone

Help me stand. Back me up

We need us, we both do

 

When did this start?

They just keep coming back for more

We’re firing bullets here and there

 

When will this ever stop?

I’m waiting for us to get out of here

Are you still standing up?

Come on let’s get out of here

 

We’re moving on (moving along…this road)

It’s full of twists and turns

Here they come. Stand your ground

I’ll be guarding your back

 

Or else we’ll be left for dead

Train Ride

I see you boarding down the train. Leisurely you walk without a care in the world. A split second glance was all we had, as I closed my eyes and continued to walk. I take my seat beside an elderly woman, still thinking about you and that small chance. I wonder if we’ll take off at the same stop. Hoping we would so I could get the chance to look at you. The whole ride I was wondering if you were someone I know. Your face looked too familiar. And it was your presence that led me to you. Your eyes covered by your brown aviator glasses, your hair smoothed out by that paperboy hat of yours. The look we gave each other was that of puzzlement and interest. I felt nervous so I walked faster, leaving you behind, leaving only my back for you to see. You startled me. And now I can’t help but regret and wish I looked at you closer, take your full being in my eyes so I won’t forget a single detail of you. That small hope still lingers inside me that I could get a glimpse of you before I leave. We don’t have anything at all between us and yet I look forward to see you once more. In this train ride we shared. 1.12.12