I Hope I’m Not Too Late

sorry i didnt notice before

i was too preoccupied
i was just so selfish to learn
i wasnt able to read the signs
i never thought you were all alone

i guess i didnt care that much
i always thought you were strong
i always looked up to you
i didnt know my assumptions were all wrong

am i too late to save you now?
is there little hope left not to let you drown
i dont want to lose you in your misery
i dont want you to be like that in my memories

sorry i wasnt aware
i should have known
all those times you came and stayed
yet i just let it all slip and time passed away

you were waiting for me
but i didnt know
you could have said something to me
but i wasnt always alone

all those times you wanted to tell
yet i was too preoccupied to care

now i understand it all
i hope im not too late
i’ll do anything, i’ll give everything for you
so please dont slip away

dont. just dont.
you’re way better than that
im sorry i didnt understand before
but now here i am for your call

i’ll help you whichever way i can
i’ll support you like no one else have done
i’ll be here. always
just dont let go. dont slip away

Train Ride

I see you boarding down the train. Leisurely you walk without a care in the world. A split second glance was all we had, as I closed my eyes and continued to walk. I take my seat beside an elderly woman, still thinking about you and that small chance. I wonder if we’ll take off at the same stop. Hoping we would so I could get the chance to look at you. The whole ride I was wondering if you were someone I know. Your face looked too familiar. And it was your presence that led me to you. Your eyes covered by your brown aviator glasses, your hair smoothed out by that paperboy hat of yours. The look we gave each other was that of puzzlement and interest. I felt nervous so I walked faster, leaving you behind, leaving only my back for you to see. You startled me. And now I can’t help but regret and wish I looked at you closer, take your full being in my eyes so I won’t forget a single detail of you. That small hope still lingers inside me that I could get a glimpse of you before I leave. We don’t have anything at all between us and yet I look forward to see you once more. In this train ride we shared. 1.12.12

writing for you

im not writing any words for you
i’ll no longer write of you
not until you say
not until you admit
not until you come close to me
be with me the way it should be

ive been waiting long enough
its been really hard
these times are rough
dont even try to bluff

im too shy to get close to you
or even dare have a chat
i only admire you from afar

you know i like you
it seems so obvious
cant you see the looks i give you?
i dont know what to say anymore
adieu

Pedring

baha na sa vito cruz at lumalangoy na muli ang mga sasakyan sa mga kalsada

dinig na dinig ang lakas ng ulan at hangin sa loob

isang uyayi sa mga taong natutulog

one night

the night is still so young

yet i feel so tired already

a bucket of beer is all i had

and your memories to keep me intact

 

i wait for you in this smoke filled room

i dont like it here

but i stay because of you

where are you?

i’ve been waiting for hours

im getting tired and restless

 

i could die here right now

just looking. staring at you

wish i could talk to you

get to know you better

be closer still

if only you knew

 

09/19/2011