Abduction

you broke my heart

it’s time to take yours

don’t you know how easy it is to play, to fall

yet it’s so hard to go back and move on

you fooled around recklessly

now you have to pay the price

the tattoos that mark your skin will all be mine

i’ll take them from you one piece at a time

leave you raw. swollen

no one will have you now

your only hope is me

and i will make you mine

you can no longer escape from my grasps

i’ll take you down

you can have it this way

or you can just say yes

be mine freely and voluntarily

you choose

dont make me wait

or i’ll make the first move

stop playing and fooling around

you will always be mine

you cannot run nor hide nor die away from me

you are mine

and i will take you

 

a thin line between life and death

too many breakdowns

and emotional dramas

it’s all bringing me down

i cant keep up anymore

im all over the place

buried deep beneath the ground

i suffocate to my death

help me come back up

i can barely see the light

dying in this emotional pool of darkness

i have been waiting for a long time

guess i was always like this

not much hope

or strength to feel

or to even want to live

i keep pushing and moving forward

only to arrive at the same place i started at

one, too many years

i keep holding on

barely keeping my grip

wanting to move on

wish there was this place

where i can just hide

under the stars

barely moving

i wanted to stop

i tried so hard never to give up

but this pain i feel inside

grows stronger each day

i cant cope up

i wanted out

i want it now

dont stop

just stop

die

The Pessimist in Me

I self destruct when I’m caught
When I’m being owned
With your selfishness
I’ll self destruct
With every romantic relationship there is
I’ll bring him with me
I’ll bring him down
To self destruction
To confusion
To loss
Having romantic relationships with me
Is never beneficial
Is never boring
You’ll face thunder storms everyday
It’ll tire you down
You can’t get up
You won’t even stop
You’ll want out
But you can’t
I’ll never let go
I’ll suffocate you with your own love
The love you used to kill me

illness

i dont like being alone

and i hate insects

im always scared

wishing for death

i dont like being me

such deadly pessimism i have

it tears me apart

like threading on a thin line

between life and death

and i hate expectations

i care too much thus being too paranoid

can you diagnose what i have?

what illness i possess?

always wanting something more

never really striving for it

always giving up far too easily

a hopeless named hope

a big void in the society

a dull machinery

tick. tock. tick. tock.

time waits for no one

not even for itself

here i come

do you hate me that much?

if you hate me then why dont you just kill me?

you dont want to kill me.

you want me to suffer

until i can no longer endure the pain

until i myself take my own life

that’s what you want right?

you dont want to dirty up your hands

with my own filthy blood

you want me to do it myself

dont worry. dont wait

here i come