A Dream

i wrote you my vow

but you threw it away

you said you’d never leave

look what happened to this place

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you said you love me

(i do love you)

what happened to us?

(you left me for someone new)

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it was a mistake

i take it all back

a one night lust

turned our love to dust

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she messed with my head

my body aches for her

she’s all i can think of

i’m wanting for more

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i never meant for it to happen

(how could you…)

A One-way Love Affair

The night I first saw you

You were singing for her

Pouring your heart out

All for your love, so far away

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I saw you again

Still singing your heart out

Not of love, but of pain

Your heart aches for her

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The third night confirmed it all

Your singing was a longing

For your love has left you for another

Eyes closed crying for her

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Your songs touch my heart

Like the way your fingers touch the guitar strings

Full of love and compassion

Of bliss and oblivion

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Then I saw you tonight

Your song is different than before

Your heart’s finally open

Accepting love once more

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Here I am finally taking my chances

Waiting, wanting to get closer to you

This heart of mine is yours to keep

This dance of ours is a song of surrender

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I give you my all, no holding back

This is our first night together

First time to forever

The wait is finally over

Train Ride

I see you boarding down the train. Leisurely you walk without a care in the world. A split second glance was all we had, as I closed my eyes and continued to walk. I take my seat beside an elderly woman, still thinking about you and that small chance. I wonder if we’ll take off at the same stop. Hoping we would so I could get the chance to look at you. The whole ride I was wondering if you were someone I know. Your face looked too familiar. And it was your presence that led me to you. Your eyes covered by your brown aviator glasses, your hair smoothed out by that paperboy hat of yours. The look we gave each other was that of puzzlement and interest. I felt nervous so I walked faster, leaving you behind, leaving only my back for you to see. You startled me. And now I can’t help but regret and wish I looked at you closer, take your full being in my eyes so I won’t forget a single detail of you. That small hope still lingers inside me that I could get a glimpse of you before I leave. We don’t have anything at all between us and yet I look forward to see you once more. In this train ride we shared. 1.12.12

writing for you

im not writing any words for you
i’ll no longer write of you
not until you say
not until you admit
not until you come close to me
be with me the way it should be

ive been waiting long enough
its been really hard
these times are rough
dont even try to bluff

im too shy to get close to you
or even dare have a chat
i only admire you from afar

you know i like you
it seems so obvious
cant you see the looks i give you?
i dont know what to say anymore
adieu

chances

would you care if i told you  i like you?

would you give me a chance

like what you do with the chords and words you choose?

i’m asking you out, can’t you see?

please give me a chance. hold me

i’ve been looking at you for an hour now

you’re busy talking to some other people

i cant breathe, in this smoke-filled room

im waiting for my chance, wont you come over?

let me hear your voice once again

let your music free me out of this pain